Dedicated to MR.SJ

i still remember our love story after all this years. it just i never get over you no matter how angry i am to you since the day you said those hurtful words. I should have forget about you kan? and i dont even know if you have a new person in your life, all i know i cant find someone like you.

Even though we might not agree to almost everything. i still miss you a lot after all these years. There's no one who can talk almost everything with me. we can even talk for hours about nothing. doing nothing during hot days or entertain ourselves in a stranded island.

and for almost 11 month im with you , im happy even though ada la sedikit sakit hati. and if i can reverse time, i want to go to that time. waking up in morning, seeing your face, jalan-jalan di pantai doing nothing, or watching football match together, watching you playing football, go supper together, eating ice cream in the midnight, betting with you, cooking for you, washing your oily coverall and hearing you nagging me when i misplace my things.

yes, i miss you. i never love someone so hard and so much like you. and i think i still love you even im not with you anymore. even the person after you, nothing compares to you. the best relationship i ever had is when im with you, where i can be myself and you being you.

and if only God let us to meet again, i hope we can start again like before.

love,

FMI

new update. :)

i was tired. yes, lelah and penat diperlakukan seperti orang yang terhegeh-hegeh. so i rest my case. i wont find you no more. there's no more me in there to find. i've already gone.

i will learn to forget all the things you said before, forget all the efforts you did just to make me yours, forget all the memories and the love that remain in me for you.

guess, not everything that you want you will get. so i'm okay with this. alone and alone again. maybe this is the time for me to be alone for a long time. i also think i need to focus on my life now, my family and me.

sorry love, for this year, i will keep you in the store. wont find you until you decide to find me back. i wont be looking for new love. i will be looking for new friends, new jobs, new life and new path.

and yes, being a workaholic seems more interesting than love for this year.

please God, help me with the interview. I need a new job to support my mum and sister. That's all matter now.

and love, sorry i cant handle you right now. guess, you need to rest for a very long period. :)



p/s: ada ker org baca post nie? hahahahaha

i make it regularly ~

i make it regularly to pray for my relationship and my life.

this year, i learnt to be sabar sentiasa.

this year also, i want to learn how to give up when it isnt worth to fight for or to stay.

please God, make me stronger each and everyday to overcome obstacles.

i dont have anyone to turn to. I only have you.

Amen.

dear God.

dear God,

please keep my love relationship grow stronger in time. 

Amen.